Recurring Thoughts of You

What is this?

What is this I am feeling?

Whenever you are near

I dread to not make a move

To just remain silent

Staring from afar

In my daydream of what we should be

Diverged from what is

You perturbed constantly watching


I wish for that day when you will

find the courage to do something

Text Message By Mae De Leon

As an aspiring writer, this was something I wrote way way back, five years ago.

‘What happens when a person tells the one that she likes the most how she feels? ‘This was something that ran through Julia’s mind. She became less self-aware, all she wanted to do was to tell Rod how she felt.

It was a wonderful time of year that Rod asked Julia out. They went out. They had fun, talked and got to know each other more their. He said he needed to go home and so she said the same thing.

A couple of months passed, Julia was just to concentrated on thinking about Rod. ‘What happened between them?’ It was like she replayed everything that happened during that night in intricate detail. All she could think of was him.

It was a very tiring night. Julia decided to have a slumber party with her friends namely Janine, Alex and Nicole. She told them everything specifically what had happened with her date with Rod. She was floating down the sea. Everything was so surreal. All she wanted to do was to think and never wake up from this so called dream. All the time she need was to think. ‘ I want everything out, I want to say it out loud, Rod I really really like you.’

Nicole said, ‘Why don’t we talk about something else?’ No one replied.

Alex said ‘Julia, don’t even do anything you will regret, dear.’

‘Please, she’s old enough, do whatever you want.Go!’ exclaimed Janine.

Julia decided to text Rod. Here’s what was written: ” Rod, I know that what I will say to you, will make you think low of me. I just want to say it out loud. I like you. I hope you will not judge me and we’re still friends.

It took a moment for her to realise what had just happened. She could not seem to construct the proper words. She was in an abyss. Totally confused. Curious. Waiting.

‘Oh my!’ Julia exclaimed. He just replied ‘Umm.. I have nothing else to say. Now what? I’m sorry.’

Everyone in the room were just disappointed and irritated.

Julia did not know what to do. She just laid there, point blank. Everything was shattered. She felt hopeless. It was as if her world fell apart. He broke her heart. She cried herself to sleep and she had her friends to comfort her. Telling her that ‘Everything’s going to be fine.’

UK:London Calling!!!

Keep calm and carry on

United Kingdom

The London Eye. It rains all the time. The Double Decker Bus, TUBE, LONDON EYE, BIG BEN, Tower of London Bridge, The London Bridge. West Minister. The British Museum. Madam Tussaud’s Museum.

As I was anticipating my arrival at the Heathrow airport. I have every inclination to probe the place that i have just met. I did not think that i was more excited than i ever imagined. I was no longer in Manila. I was ready to conquer London,England.

We arrived at our hotel called Holiday Inn. Somewhere in Kensington. It was our first night on this greater vacation.

As for my curious self. I gave in i was walking through the streets of london trying to find south kensington and its gleeful shops such as topshop, Zara, TK maxx, and so on.Shopping at its finest. The shopping is bizarre or mental as the British would call it.Indeed the British accent was like music to my ears.The brits are actually nice and helpful people.That night was a bit cheeky. I was looking forward to the next few days.

Finally the time to actually experience the sights and sounds of London.

Tower of London

Telephone Booth
“The Queen is Coming.”I did not have the opportunity to meet her but I was able to visit the Buckingham Palace. I did get a chance to have a picture with Prince Harry’s wax figure.

with Prince Harry

It was a walking adventure and I was really ecstatic to have had the opportunity to experience this place.

The tour of the City of London was splendid.

London Eye

I would seriously go back and visit Notting Hill and the Harry Potter Museum.

Just a quick stop to Stonehenge


and a short visit to Bath specifically the Roman Baths.




Retrospect: The Philosophy of Eating Healthy

I’d like to share a paper I wrote for my Philosophy class way back in 2010. Let’s hear it from my 21 year old self. It’s almost Christmas and more food to come. I came to a realization that sharing my insights regarding food would inspire and give insights.

December is CHRISTMAS!!!




Caper diem meaning to seize the day because we are being busy, we just let the day pass without even doing anything out of the ordinary. Today, everything comes in an instant like food, coffee and so on. I want to talk about my health since I have been busy with school and not eating healthy or being less conscious of my health.
My dad always goes to the gym and does not eat rice at all. My mom is eating only two meals a day. My younger sister is a dancer who can eat whatever she wants but is concerned about losing weight. On the other hand I do not care at all. When I was younger, I was physically active and fit since I played soccer. As the years passed, my academic standing is compromised so to focus in my studies in school, I gave up playing soccer. For the past few years, I gained weight because I really love the taste and feel of food. I have been struggling with losing weight since then. Just recently I went to the school clinic and had my medical check-up, to my surprise I gained a lot of weight since I started college. I made a deal with my cousin that I would lose weight and do everything I can but I lacked motivation and the persistence to go with diet and exercise. In short, I got bored and felt the need to give up. Now, I’m changing my ways by eating healthier foods and trying very hard to exercise as much as I can.

The philosophical questions: Why do we eat? Why do I find it difficult to have a healthy lifestyle?

First, eating is not just a need but also a desire for all of us to survive and replenish the calories lost because of daily living. But, too much, beyond the daily needs may lead to being overweight and worst, being morbidly obese. Love of food leads to addiction to food in general. The best way to solve this problem would be to eat in moderation. Eating less can actually make each of us crave for more. A deprived person tends to eat more than he or she needs. Food and water are basic necessities and are important. But sometimes why do we go beyond and want more than what we need? Is this an expression of our primal needs to satisfy our unlimited wants? It’s like a big ocean abundant and filled with different types and forms of life, from the corals to all sea animals. This is overwhelming since it is a mystery and tends to get deeper within us.

Second, with the fast pace of modern living, the practice of eating healthy is slowly decreasing. Even if a lot of people are conscious of what they eat and are trying to eat healthy, majority just continue on eating fast food since everyone have fast-paced lifestyle and are seemingly busy. One can even consider eating as a coping mechanism for stressful events in ones’ lives. One eats less because of dieting; others are stressed out that they can’t even eat. Isn’t it unpredictable that each individual have different perspectives and views regarding food? While all of us eat, we have different food preferences and have different reasons for eating. Majority just eat because they need to get through the day. For others, eating is a form of social interaction and, as such, an occasion. Does eating lead to happy things? Or do people eat because they are sad? I consider eating as a need, a choice, for betterment and for filling in something empty. Just like traveling around the world, we go to different places to learn about culture. With food, there are many kinds, preparations and reasons for them to be consumed.

Third, I strongly believe that eating has something to do with passion and having control. Some people don’t just eat food for the sake of eating alone. Others even consider preparing the food and have dedicated their lives cooking. It is their passion. It is their profession. Some people venture into becoming chefs, food critiques, owning restaurants, writing books about food making others see that food is not only all about eating but also loving what you do. On the other hand, control over something is needed in order to not be too greedy or unsatisfied. If one wants to lose weight one has to control what one consumes. If one wants to succeed one has to have determination and control and motivation. When we are given a task, or consider living, we are in control of the decisions we make. The sense of responsibility, maturity and subjective well being each one of us needs to succeed and finish what we want to do defying all odds. Eating has been rooted from our ancestors even though, they eat differently from us. Some countries eat rice while others are just fine with bread and pasta. Culture is connected with food. Filipinos really love food. I like the idea of trying new cuisines once in a while. You eat because you are starving or sometimes to satisfy your needs that is both a passion and a form of control.

Considering the things I have mentioned earlier, food is vital in daily living even if we say we can last a day without eating. It is just a matter of choice or options. We have to choose because of the different types of food at hand. We have healthy options too but some of us just love eating what’s bad for us like oily foods, sugary food, as well as spicy and salty ones. Some people even venture or consider being vegetarians, vegan or some consider eating meat all the time while others eat whatever is present. Some get bored with eating the same food everyday so they try fast foods instead, quick and yummy but unhealthy. The power is within our hands if we want to indulge ourselves and suffer the consequence of getting diseases once we get older then let things be. People who are obese or overweight may be diabetics or even get diseases that are very bad. I don’t want to be like them, given that my parents are both doctors. They are pressuring me for my own benefit. I want to be healthy because I don’t want to develop disease that may harm me. Some people even develop eating disorders like bulimia and anorexia, I don’t want to be like them so thin to the point they look disgusting even if they are reed thin. I strongly believe that with persistence, motivation and control, I can do it. I change my outlook on food because I want to be physically fit like I used to be. I am not doing this for just losing weight but at the same time to be healthy and happy. Even if I get tempted to eat sweets, I just tell myself that I will only eat little amount, I am still persistent that I can do this. It is my challenge now to continue living with healthy foods and eat in moderation.

Not everyone gets to eat good food such as the poor people who can only eat less than what we have at home. Food is a gift and a privilege that we need to consume and not take for granted. We should eat healthy food to become healthy individuals. Being healthy is not just focused on better looks or getting thin or buffed up to be noticed. You just don’t eat healthy but to incorporate exercise and an active lifestyle for things to be effective. I came to realize that food is of the essence without we will not function as normal people. It’s about doing something good for yourself and being influenced by the people you love such as my family and friends. Nothing really is impossible if we just put our heart into things. Life is a climb but the view is great all the time. The only way to be happy is for us to love ourselves more and share that love we have with others.

Poetry Challenge

It’s a poetry challenge because I only had to use the words once.

It came from my Slate planner.

“Mesmerized Sentiments Called L-I-F-E”

By Mae De Leon

I fall.Rewind

Lost in your eyes.

I should walk.

I stand close and try.

To hope, want

Fact: By choice

“I’m alive!”

Word: “Incredible!”

Behind, underneath the

Piece of a cloudy world

Time away exist

Fuss! Please!

Around on, circle

Picture  by,

They be


I LOVE New York

What comes to mind when I think about New York?

The Chrysler Building.The Empire State.Brooklyn Bridge

Manhattan Bridge .Williamsburg Bridge


Statue of Liberty. Ellis Island

Fordham University. Columbia University

New York University. PARSONS School of Design

New York City Chinatown. Starbucks everywhere you go.


Why I love NYC ?

I love New York because of the picturesque buildings, wonderful sights of the Brooklyn Bridge, Manhattan Bridge and Williamsburg Bridge. The city of lights that is  C’est Magnifique!  The Chrysler Building and the Empire state. Lady Liberty,. I love watching Broadway. I love to go to Museums and shop.

I’ve always wanted to try the French macarons of Laduree.

The fast paced lifestyle of every New Yorker has always been something that I yearned for. Growing up watching films :Who could forget the movies “An Affair to Remember” “You’ve Got Mail” “Serendipity” “Breakfast At Tiffany’s”. And the hit Tv series Gossip Girl.

New York.. Concrete Jungles where dreams are made of… start spreading the news..

It has been a place where a lot of people have been featured and where dreams are made of.

The City that never sleeps.

It was the end of Spring and the start Summer, when I was gallivanting around the streets.  I came to a realization how surreal it was to actually be in the city where people began to start living their lives.  Taking pictures was a highly important spectacle to capture every moment there. “Pictures worth a thousand words.”

During my first few days in NYC, I stayed at the Chelsea area somewhere in Manhattan. Not so many places to eat or dine out.

If you do want to dine out somewhere decent. To name a few good places to eat at .It’s good to try Applebee’s, Brooklyn Dinner, Serendipity III, and Heartland Brewery, Carnegie Deli etc.

If you are familiar with the movie Night at The Museum, I did go around that Museum, The Museum of Natural History.

I also rode the virtual sky ride in the Empire State Building and enjoy the view. Remembering the movie, Sleepless in Seattle and An Affair To Remember where the lovers had to meet on top of the building.

Who could forget the Television series F.R.I. E. N. D. S and How I Met Your Mother showcasing the beautiful places and sceneries around New  York.

I went to D.C.

When I got back to NYC, I stayed near the Rockefeller Center.

It’s near the NBC studio. I just saw Chris Brown dancing from the back singing “Forever”.

I had the chance to join the Behind the scenes of the Broadway Musical “Wicked”.  I want to watch “Wicked” on Broadway when I do come back. During my last few days in NY, I was able to enjoy “Memphis”. It was totally an awesome Broadway production.

10 Things to do you must try to do:

  1. Visit the Empire State Building
  2. Visit the Museums (MET, MOMA,ect.)
  3. If you have time, jog or simply walk around Central Park
  4. Watch Broadway
  5. Shop
  6. Eat
  7. Walk around Times Square
  8. Ride the subway or NYC taxi. Ride across or around NYC to see the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island
  9. If you don’t know where to go, join the Hop on-Hop off Tour or simply get hold of a map of New York
  10. Watch NBC live

P.S. I did try almost every single thing on my list. More pictures to follow.

If you do ever end up going to New York, let me know what you think.




Photography By: Loraine Garcia

Sawadee ka! Sawadee krup!

My first trip abroad without my family. It was time for me to see the world.

It was last September, 2011. I needed a break from all the stresses at work. I needed to get away and clear my mind for sometime.

What comes to mind when you think of Thailand? I was actually reminded of the movie A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. P’Shone, P’Nam. All about first love :) Thailand.

Never have I imagined riding an elephant. 

Riding a tuktuk. Seeing Buddha in different positions and statues. Buddhism. The Floating Market. Private Tour.

Quick Trivia: Did you know that Thailand was called Siam before? Thailand is a monarchy.

Sometimes language can be a barrier.

Some tips :Always always bring your money and wear shorts, bring shades.

It was an awesome trip that made me appreciate Thailand’s street food. Chilly powder, sugar, mangoes and pineapples.Yum? No one will ever be hungry in Thailand.

The Verdict is that Bangkok is a must see place especially to those who like to shop. Cheap bargains, sale, awesome food and culture.

Thank you Thailand ! For you will always be remembered in my heart.



Photography by :Therese Marcelo